I Hope You Find Your Family



In high school, I wasn't bullied. I was actually respected and nobody ever really bothered me. I kept to myself because I was so focused on speech, archery, and homework. I really only had one best friend, and we're still friends to this day. She was my rock in high school. I can't thank her enough.

Anyway, despite not being bullied, I still felt out of place. My interests were different from my classmates' interests. I was focused on getting through school. It was very rare when I hung out with friends after school and practice (besides my junior year). Basically, I was used to feeling left out.

Then I went to college and found the Theatre Company.

At the end of every school year, we have a banquet to look back on the past shows and activities, hand out awards, and congratulate the grads. This year that room was overflowing with so much love for one another that I balled.

I finally didn't feel left out. I felt like I belonged. I knew I had found my family.

That was also the same night I realized how hard this summer will be. I'm used to being able to see my theatre family in a matter of minutes, and now I'll be hundreds of miles away. Of course, I know going to Indiana is an amazing opportunity. Believe me, I know and I’m so blessed to have gotten this chance because not everyone does. I'd be stupid to pass up this opportunity. However, there is a part of me that wishes my entire theatre family could join me because I've already been through some amazing experiences with them.

Sometimes you've just gotta do you though. You've gotta do what's best and right for you, and I know this is what's right for me. Even the Theatre Company knows this is what's right for me, and that thought is going to help me get through the summer without them.

As excited as I am for this internship, I'm still scared and nervous. Now that I've found a place where I fit in, I'm leaving it and going to a place that I may not click with. I realize the fear is all in my head, but that doesn't make it any easier. My theatre family believes in me though, and as long as I remember that the fear will ease away.

So this is what I hope for you: I hope you find people (whether it be a group, a couple people, blood relatives, whatever) that love you for you and will support you no matter what. I hope you find a place that you can go to when you're scared, hurt, worried, or panicked and get better. I hope you feel like you belong. I hope you find your family because everyone deserves one. Everyone.

Thank You and Good Night!

Infinity Dreams Award


Ashlyn tagged me again! This time it's the Infinity Dreams Award and, as always, there's a few rules that go along with it:
  1. Use the Infinity Dreams Award picture
  2. Thank the blogger who tagged you
  3. Tell us 11 facts about yourself
  4. Answer the 11 questions
  5. Tag 11 bloggers (which is going to be really difficult for me)

11 Facts
1. My favorite musical is Into the Woods.
2. I have one more year left of college and I’m slightly freaking out about having to go into the real world soon.
3. This summer I get to spend about two months in Indiana thanks to an Assistant Stage Manager internship!
4. THEN I GET TO SEE THREE OF MY BEST FRIENDS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD IN WASHINGTON!
This is probably gonna be us when we see each other.
5. I want to go to Ireland one day.
6. I'm President of a Theatre Honor Society.
7. I love to read and write, but have a horrible motivation to do so.
8. I love to color in those adult coloring books.
9. I try to be a nice person even to people that irritate me, but sometimes I struggle.
10. I really like to paint.
11. I procrastinate a lot. It's really bad.

11 Questions/Answers
1. What is the last nightmare that you had?
I think it was stress dream for our festival (which just finished yesterday, by the way). I was in two one-acts and was going to be performing both on Saturday. Keeping that in mind, in my nightmare I was running out of time before I had to get on stage. There's nothing more embarrassing than not being prepared to go on stage. It's really scary and nerve-wracking.
2. If you had to be either a Selkie or a Kelpie, which would you choose?
Hang on. I gotta look at some images.
Hmmm . . . Both are pretty cool. I'll go with a Selkie.
3. Would you lure your enemies into your monstrous clutches?
Probably.
4. What is your favorite number?
24. I also like 25.
5. Do you hate Comic Sans as much as the rest of us?
Yes. Yes, I do.
6. Am I the only one who hasn't ever watched Interstellar?
I haven't seen it either.
7. Sebastian Stan, am I right?
Um. Sure?
8. What does the fox actually say? (Same, Fox. Same)
9. You can spend an hour with one well-known, but deceased person. Who is it?
ROBIN WILLIAMS
10. Do you hate cardio as much as I do?
I hate any exercise to be honest, besides walking. That's probably why I'm overweight and not healthy at all.
11. Vanilla or Chocolate?
What about a mix? Can I mix those two?
If not, I'll go with vanilla because then I can get all the toppings!

Bloggers
*writes Wesley 11 times*

Here's your questions:
  1. What is your favorite time of the day?
  2. What is your favorite book genre?
  3. What song gets you super motivated to accomplish anything?
  4. If money was not an issue, what is the first thing you would do?
  5. Do you know any scary stories?
  6. Do you know any puns/jokes?
  7. Should you be doing something else right now instead of writing a blog post?
  8. What is your favorite color and why?
  9. Have you ever been on stage? If so, what was it like? If not, would you like to be?
  10. If you had magical powers, what would they be?
  11. Are you an artist?
Thank You and Good Night!

The Happy Tag


So my best friend, Ashlyn, nominated me for the Happy Tag! Thank you, my dear! I greatly appreciate it! Now you all get to know a little bit more about me and what makes me happy. (Note: I'm happy about 95% of the time; at least I try anyway).

Here are the categories: books, words, tv shows/movies, scents, songs, and miscellaneous followed by the nominees at the end.

BOOKS
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
I LOVE THIS SERIES SO MUCH. I even got to meet Ransom Riggs and he signed my copy of Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children. (It's basically my child; I'm so protective of it). These books are so different and so good. I adore them. Like, A LOT.

The Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer
I LOVE THIS SERIES SO MUCH. Wait . . . I said that already. Eh. Whatever. This series is basically a retelling of fairytales, but in a futuristic way and it's so cool and epic. LOVE. IT.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians by Rick Riordan
Greek mythology told in modern times. What more can I say? Super good, super funny, super amazing.

The Kane Chronicles by Rick Riordan
I really like Rick Riordan. Wait, scratch that. I LOVE Rick Riordan! This series is pretty much the same as Percy Jackson, however it follows Egyptian mythology instead. Not many people like Carter and Sadie, but I love them. I think they're freaking cool.

Hank the Cowdog by John R. Erickson
THIS IS MY CHILDHOOD RIGHT HERE. I read Hank the Cowdog alllllllll the time growing up! They're hilarious, adorable, and just fun books. I can get through one in, like, less than a day now, but they're still great. They started my love of reading.

WORDS
unique
wanderlust

TV SHOWS & MOVIES
Sherlock
This show blows my mind every single time I watch it. 'Nuff said.

Doctor Who
Favorite Doctor = 11th Doctor (AKA the adorkable Matt Smith)

Gotham
THIS SHOW KILLS ME. I'M SO FAR BEHIND ON IT AND I HATE IT.

Arrested Development
This gif basically sums up the show. Crazy family = beautifully hilarious show.

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt
SEASON 2 IS ON NETFLIX AND I'M AS HAPPY AS KIMMY IN THIS GIF.

The Simpsons
I actually have to do research on The Simpsons for a play. (I swear, it's true!) So because of that I've been watching a lot of The Simpsons and I never realized how funny of a show it is. No wonder it's on it's 27th season.

Bob's Burgers
I dressed as Louise for Halloween last year. (Best decision of my life, I will have you know.) Crazy family shows are my favorite types of shows.

O Brother Where Art Thou?
I recently had to rewatch this movie for my film appreciation class, and I forgot how fantastic it is. There's so many good quotes from it, plus it's just directed so freaking well. (Those Coen brothers, man.) It reminds me of my childhood too because I grew up watching it, which is probably really weird but whatever. I regret nothing.

SCENTS
fruity scents - green apple, strawberry, watermelon, cherry, orange, etc., etc.
chocolately treats fresh out of the oven
home cooked meals

SONGS
"Alexander Hamilton" from Hamilton: The Musical

any musical theatre song basically
(Note: You don't understand how happy this gif makes me.)

any Fall Out Boy song

any Owl City song

MISCELLANEOUS
theatre
books
IHOP nights
inside jokes
bonfires
road trips
traveling
archery

NOMINEES
Frankie
Sally May
Grace
The Interviewer
Margaret
Wesley (he's a great friend of mine; go check out his blogs)

(Fun Fact: all the nominees I just listed are roles that I've played at my college, besides Wesley of course).


Thank You and Good Night!

P.S. I feel like I'm using too many gifs. Am I? Gifs are life I can't help it.

Liebster Blog Award


Heh. Look who's back at long last!

I am really sorry, everyone. Theatre owns my life. I'm actually typing this blog post up in the green room during a show.

Anyway, the next few posts are going to be tags/awards that I've been meaning to do forever. The first one is the Liebster Blog Award that the sweet and talented Abbiee has tagged me in. Go check out her blog (and her music!) because she's fab.

However, before we get on with the questions/answers, we've got some rules:
  1. Link back to the person who tagged you.
  2. Answer all the questions I’ve asked you.
  3. Tag 11 bloggers who have less than 1000 readers.
  4. Ask them 11 questions.
  5. Let them know you’ve tagged them via social media/their blog.
Unfortunately, all the people I know that have blogs have already done this so I'm not going to tag anyone, therefore I'm not going to ask any questions. Sorry, guys. Onto the questions!



Best childhood memory?
Let's see . . . It would definitely have to be when I would go play outside in the woods around my house. There was this clearing that had these huge rocks covered in moss, and they were placed in a shape that somewhat resembled a circle.
I used to love this book series called Warriors by Erin Hunter. It was about these feral cats that were separated into clans. Each clan had a camp that had spaces for the warriors, elders, apprentices, etc. So that clearing full of rocks was my "camp" and each rock was an area for the cats. I had one for the medicine cat, the elders, the warriors, the apprentices, and the leader of the clan.
Yes, I was an odd child. I haven't changed much since becoming an adult.

What is your opinion of Tumblr?
I have a mixed opinion of Tumblr. I do have a Tumblr and I'm on there quite a bit, but sometimes Tumblr gets too crazy for me. I go on there just to watch funny/stupid videos, see cool photos or fan art, and maybe learn something interesting. When arguments happen on there though I don't get into it because they're usually not civil. I have seen a few civil arguments though, but for the most part I just skim over those posts. So besides that I enjoy Tumblr.

Current favorite song?
"Alexander Hamilton" from Hamilton: The Musical.
I LOVE IT SO MUCH. IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND WARMS MY THEATRE HEART.

Spirit animal? (It can also be a person).
My friend simply because she made this photo her phone background:
It makes me really happy.

What is the thing that, when you do it, you feel ALIVE?
THEATRE. When I'm working on a show it's complete chaos because you have light/sound crew hanging lights, set crew putting together the set, props crew making the props, costumes crew making costumes, and whatever else might be happening. It's a beautiful chaos full of teamwork, and every time it happens I feel so in the moment that I can only describe it as being ALIVE.

Are GIFs life or annoying?
GIFs ARE LIFE. DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE.

Do you stare at them forever just to read lips with the caption?
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT DID THIS. THANK THE LORD THAT I'M NOT ALONE.

Was that last question confusing?
Haha, no because I TOTALLY do the same thing. Like, every time I see a gif pretty much.

Dream job?
STAGE MANAGER. Man, being a professional stage manager would be the most amazing thing ever. I'd love to travel with a touring company too. Imagine all the places I would visit! Imagine the memories I would make! My life would be made.
I actually have an internship as an Assistant Stage Manager this summer!
Needless to say, I'm very excited.

Who is your greatest spiritual influence?
I don't think I really have a spiritual influence. I do believe in God. However, I'm still trying to figure out what I actually believe in.
One of my theatre professors has this quote in her office: "Work hard and be nice to others." Honestly, that's what I try to follow. I do work hard. Sometimes being nice to others is difficult, especially when they're mean to others on a daily basis, but I still try to be professional and courteous. That's not spiritual, but that's what I believe in.

If you had access to a time machine, where would you go?
LIKE DOCTOR WHO?! . . . Sorry. Any talk of a time machine or time travel instantly makes me think of Doctor Who. I freaking love that show.
Anyway, I think I'd like to travel to the 1900s. That was the turn of the century. So many things we now take for granted were just being invented. Plus I remember reading about women's rights during this time. I think it'd be cool to see history happening right before my eyes.


Annnnnd that's a wrap! Hopefully my next post will be up sooner, but don't get your hopes up.


Thank You and Good Night!

I Live for Those Nights



I live for the nights of birthdays. Those nights when we all dress nice and head to The Branch in a large group. Those nights when we're all gathered around that long table, chatting like we haven't seen each other in years. Those nights when our laughs are probably annoying other patrons and the restaurant staff.

I live for the nights of river visits. Those nights when it's freezing and we'd have to be crazy to actually visit the river, but we do and I don't regret a single decision. Those nights when we're playing Bunny, Bunny and glad we're the only ones around to witness our game. Those nights when we stare at the stars, spin, and pray our friends catch us.

I live for the nights of traditions. Those nights when we're bonding with each other. Those nights when we're making inside jokes. Those nights when we're laughing so hard we're doubled over, trying to catch our breath. Those nights when we're making memories that we'll treasure forever and one day probably miss.

Those nights when I say, "I'm gonna miss this place. I'm gonna miss these people."

Those nights when I make a promise to myself to keep these traditions going next year.

Those nights when it hits me that next year is going to come a lot faster than I think.

Those nights when I realize I'm not ready to leave my family yet.